Warrior

About two weeks ago we found a surprise on our front doorstep.  I was watering my garden when this weird pink thing started moving awkwardly in the dirt.  It scared the living daylights out of me but when I looked closer, I realized it was a baby bird that had fallen out of it’s nest.  There were actually four baby birds on the ground in total, only one had survived.  Nevan and I rushed inside, grabbed a tissue box, and put him under a heat lamp.  I told Nevan that the bird probably wouldn’t survive the night which left tears in his eyes, but we decided to do the best that we could.  Over the past 13 years I’ve found and tried to rescue about 6 different baby birds that never survived.  Cameron and I were skeptical about taking him in knowing full and well that Nevan would be in tears and devastated in the morning.

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I researched online what to feed him and Cameron ran to the corner gas station to pick up some wet canned dog food.  Every 20 minutes we fed him that day, and I woke up every hour that night to continue feedings.  The little guy made it through his first night and we decided to call him “Warrior.”  I told Nevan that he probably wouldn’t make it through the next night either and kept up the same feeding routine.  The little guy amazed us again and made it through the second night.  At that point I considered writing about him in this blog, but I still didn’t think he’d pull through and I didn’t want to have to update everyone with bad news.

The Warrior came to us when he was just one day old according to the pictures we found online and his eyes were still closed.  He is now three and a half weeks old and proudly flying around our house.  He loves perching in Nevan’s hair, snuggling in Cameron’s shirt, and cuddling with me all rumpled up in the blankets on the couch.  Originally I wanted to be able to release him back into the wild, but since he’s been fed by us at all hours of the day, he is no longer releasable (Nevan of course was hoping that this would be the case because, “Warrior is just too special to let go.”).

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For those of you that aren’t familiar with our home. we basically live on a miniature farm (right now Nevan and I are sitting on bales of hay next to the goats, playing with legos, and writing this blog).  We have goats, chickens, ducks, turkeys, bees, a cat, a very pregnant German Shepherd, and now a hand fed wild sparrow.  Every spring baby goats start popping up along with the renewed visits of wild rabbits, elk, deer, and bobcats.  I recently found out from a neighbor of mine that everyone refers to me as “the animal lady.”  Along with the miracles of birth each spring come the loss of animals, mainly due to the bobcats in the area.  Death and loss is very much a part of our way of life where we live which I feel has helped Nevan understand that every living being has a beginning and an end and this has allowed him to better cope with the loss of his brother.  Along with that understanding comes the constant reminder that life is fleeting and delicate which adds worry to Nevan’s daily tasks.

Bringing Warrior into our home was worrisome for these reasons because we knew that Nevan would immediately become attached to the little guy.  I feel that we are given things throughout our life to help us grow and understand the lessons that we need to learn before we pass on to heaven.  At this point in our life we have been surrounded by alot of death and grieving and I think that it was understood that we needed a little bit of hope and life to bring a more positive form of energy into our home.  Warrior has accomplished this for us tenfold, and he’s pretty cute to boot!

Iron Man 3!

I’ve been asked quite a few times if we saw Iron Man 3 over the weekend, and we absolutely did!  To sum it up, Iron Man 3 was everything we could have hoped for in a movie and I know Christian was right there with us cheering for his hero and sitting in our laps.

We went in a big group and took up almost an entire aisle in honor of Tony Stark and Christian.  Some of Christian’s best friends were there: Nevan, Jett, and Rach sat together laughing and cheering for Iron Man, even through the scary parts.  A very pregnant Aunt Demi with Julian Michael Watson in tow was in the audience sitting next to Uncle Sheldon. Julian was born Monday morning and I know he talked to Christian during the entire movie and got lots of tips about his new family that he was just about to be born into.  And then of course the other grown ups in the group included Mom squared, Matt, Jaime, Mike, and Christian’s Mom and Dad.

We all agree that the quote at the end of Iron Man 3 summed up our thoughts about Christian and our favorite super hero perfectly:

My armor was never a distraction or hobby it was a cocoon, and now I’m a changed man. You can take away my house, all my tricks and toys. But one thing you can’t take away “I am Iron Man”.“―Tony Stark

Of course comparing the suit to a cocoon made all of us cry.  And just like Christian lost his physical life here including his house, toys, and family he still remains Christian, that will never change.  We couldn’t help but feel that those words were written specifically for us.  Thank you Iron Man.

IRON MAN 3!!!

Tomorrow night Iron Man 3 is released in theaters!!!  Christian would be on the edge of his seat in excitement right now.  Black Sabbath would be cranked up on our speakers and echoing through all of the rooms in our house.  I can just imagine our little man waltzing around the living room in his jeans and white tank top insisting that we call him Tony all week long while he goes through multiple costume changes.  There would be Iron Man parties and we would watch Avengers, Iron Man, and Iron Man 2 all through the night.

But Christian is not here and it’s sad to think that I just realized that Iron Man 3 is coming out in theaters tomorrow.  This would have been a major event in our home and Christian was not here to tell us about his new and most favorite up and coming movie.

All of our heads are too big to fit into Christian’s Iron Man helmet, so it will not be flying around the house complete with sound effects.  I won’t be stepping on Iron Man figurines late at night, and hand drawn pictures of Iron Man flying won’t be hanging on our fridge.

Nevan pointed this out to me and told me that he was sad that Christian wasn’t going to see Iron Man 3.  Nevan just knows that of course Christian would love it!

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We will see Iron Man 3 in theaters this weekend, Christian would have insisted on that.  This time we’ve decided that we will watch the movie and picture Christian on all of the sets watching Robert Downey Jr. turn into Tony Stark and fly as Iron Man.  Christian got the behind the scenes back stage tour from heaven and I know that is a much better seat than any normal movie theater.  He already knows all of the great lines that Tony Stark is going to say and that the good guy is going to win in the end like he always does.

I just wish my little guy was still here to escort me safely back to my car after the movie is over, just like he did after Iron Man 2.